Life's Daily Doses

First trip .. last to go

Well my caboose has left the station. She has finally reached the age to where she can go "away" on a sleepover field trip with school. I can not believe this time is here. She was super excited this morning and got up at 3:30 am to get ready. (We didn't need to be at school until 5:45) Once we arrived at school she immediately found her group and pretty much left without saying good bye. Nothing needy or dependent about who she has become.  I was fortunate enough to get a bunch of waves from the bus window. I hope she enjoys her time away in St. Augustine.

Where does the time go?

Sometimes there is no question

We spent a lot of time outside this weekend. There is an assurance this weather is not here to stay, the temperature will be rising SOON and the heat will be pretty much unbearable. So, outside it was and there were many sunburned bodies to prove it. 

We enjoyed the cloudless skies and endless mermaid adventures.

Swimming  under the full moon until their little tails almost fell off..

 Ending the weekend with this sunset. 

Sometime there is just no question..  God is pretty amazing.

 

Mind Over Matter and Not Matter over Mind

I have been told recently that...

• I've lost my identity
• I over think things that don't really deserve my energy
• I need to have mind over matter and not matter over mind
• I need to concentrate more on my passions
• I need to reconnect with myself
• I need to leave other peoples energies in the space in which they occupy and to protect my own energy
• I am exhausted by other's 
• I need a let my voice be heard
• I need to stop making excuses and know in my heart that I am a good mother and wife
• I need to leave the ego of others and myself at the door

That it's time for me ..  to take back my power!

 

Last one hitting double digits

Well my baby "caboose"  has entered the phase of  DOUBLE DIGITS. She is the last of my brood that will give me this opportunity to celebrate this right of passage. It feels strange to think that she is already hitting the "tween" years. How is it possible that I have 2 adult children, and 2 tweens? When did the clock strike so quickly?

Happy Birthday Ms. Ayla

Clean Slate

(logo from @CleanSlateTV)

I have this want to start over on just about everything in my life. I,of course, want to start over with ALL the knowledge I have accumulated up until this point in my life. Wouldn't that just be a sweet treat? Who wouldn't want a do over if that were the case. I do know that I would change many things that I obviously can't do anything about. So why you ask am I wasting time in my head wishing I could start over? Well, I just think that if a clean slate were an option it's always good to see where one has made poor choice or mistakes along the way. Yeah, I hear you. Mistakes are what makes us who we are, but I also think mistakes get in the way of who we can become.

If you could do the should of, would of, could of game and had a chance to clean slate your life. What would you change? I have learned so much via the internet on how things can be, and ways to do better. 

So, I am asking for every one out there to entertain the thought. 

Here are a few examples for me.

•  I would have had my kids closer together. ( I am raising two seperate families due to the age gap and it's tough)
•  I would have maintained keeping a smaller living space and just found creative ways to make it a home that accommodated our needs.
•  I would have invested our money when we had it.
•  I would have created a garden and taught my kids the meaning of eating "healthy".
•  I would have been smarter with my finances. I would have eliminated all credit card debt.
•  I would have been more loving and spent more time with myself.
•  I would have taught my daughters that they matter and that loving yourself in healthy means is what it's all about. 
•  I would have gone back to school and stayed there no matter how hard it was/is.
•  I would have started a college fund for all my kids or a savings for them so they could move out    when the time was right. 
• I would have travelled more. 
• I would have played more.
• I would have mediated more and gone to yoga.
• I would have held my older kids more accountable.
• I would have had them work more and save more.
• I would have made my kids do more chores 
• I would have taught them how to do laundry at an early age
• I would have pushed independence a bit more and the importance of relying on oneself.
• I would have made them buy their own car and gas.
• I would have expressed my feelings even when it was uncomfortable
• I would have demanded more of my needs to be met.

 

Just a few things ..  and I know I can still do all that I listed. 

That is where the stretching and uncomfortable feelings come into play. Am I ready?

 

 

 

Protected and Becoming (update)

Nature is a beautiful thing. We watched the caterpillars gorge one minute and turn into this the next, and it was simply amazing. We can not wait to see what emerges.

I sometimes feel my lack of social stimulation is me cocooning myself. I just wish that when I emerge all will be aligned and my insides will match what I want from the outside space I occupy.

Sometimes withdrawing is necessary in order to stretch in directions otherwise ignored.I think it is time to start getting uncomfortable with myself and stretching. Time for some yoga and mediation. I need to excavate the places that have caved in. Time for a rebuilding of myself. I have severed the connection to what really matters to my soul and I need to get real and start honoring what I have been given. A time to rebuild my walls and make them stronger. 

 

 

Checking in while I check out..

I have been distant. This place called "blog land" kinda overwhelms me at times. So I just lurk through other peoples spaces and avoid my own. 

I am here. 

Not much has changed.

My energy has been inward lately and that I find to be a bit frustrating.

I still find my blips in life that make me say "Ah, I am grateful"..  "My life is okay and small in comparison to some."

I still seek for a shift of some sort, whether it be spiritual, physical, mental or all. I just wish to be over the hurdle of where we stand and be settled. A better understanding and a more concrete grip on what our reality is. This in-between state is unsettling for sure. 

I am okay.

Life is a Ride

Well, Spring Break 2012 has existed and passed. Time is running a race with itself always moving forward and fast. We had the joy and opportunity to go to Busch Gardens in Tampa for spring break. That was fun. I love the opportunity to scare the living daylights out of myself to make sure I am still alive. NOTHING better than a 220 foot drop at 65 miles per hour. 

I think all and all I exhausted everyone.

 

We came back to a visit from my mom.

A surprise visit that unfortunately I was not here to receive until days later. Still a surprise in my book. I don't think anyone will ever realize how much of a HUGE chore this was for her. She is not a 100 % well and this trip gave her the option of believing she is capable. GO MOM!

KONY 2012

This is powerful..  please take the time to watch this

 

Around Here

I would like to take a moment and reflect on some recent happenings

We have a STRAIGHT A HONOR ROLL student in the house....

 

A girl who loves horses..  and could be with the 24/7 if I wasn't allergic. (Thank you Meagan)

A kitty that has become a dear friend of mine during the day.

The end...