I am sending out a request to all my people on the internet. (Lisa -- that is you) Please say a prayer of protection and peace to be blessed upon Tolga and his brothers as they reunite and lay their mother to rest. This is challenging and uncomfortable to have bad blood while you have to put your parent to rest.
My Everyone REST now. Let the dust settle and the healing begin. Rest in peace Saadet.. You deserve it. Dance and shake that handkerchief - find the music in your heart to go home.
This is all of Ayla's work that was required for her to make up!
Insane-but she did it.
Finally! It is OUT -- 4:45 Ayla comes running into my room to declare it has fallen out. Thank God she didn't swallow it.
See below:: EXHIBIT B
Well what more can be said other than "damn vacations are not long enough." Well after returning home I feel like a weight has landed in my lap. No I am not dying of cancer like some, No I am not burnt 85 % of my body like some, No my kids are not ill like some, BUT I do have issues in my life that require me to hold a heavy heart.
1. My vacation was beautiful and I am so thankful for being in the mountains to partake in the fall explosion. I am grateful, yes I am. My vacation was not all that I had hoped it to be. I had held myself high on the expectation department. Since this did not happen the way I had dreamed it would my heart is heavy.
2. My eldest child is .. for a lack of vocabulary on my part at this moment - STUPID, SPOILED AND SELFISH! There has been a few things that have transpired in the course of a few weeks that are NOT pleasant, NOT proud, and surely NOT acceptable. I as a step parent am TIRED. Tired of the lies, the games, and the non sense that trails behind. Chances have been given, feet have been stepped on, priviledges abused. For the love of GOD something needs to be adjusted. I am praying for an intervention so large that one can not even begin to explain its size. An intervention to come in and teach this young lady a lesson in humility and respect for herself and for her family. She has NO idea the impact her doings has on the entire family. The trail she has marked for her sisters to compete against. When is enough - enough. How many chances can she get in this life to prove herself .. to herself. I know I know she is young. Screw being young - I was almost a mother at her age. I don't understand her. The more she is given the poorer her choices. At this juncture in her life -- I am ready to cut the cord and sit back and watch whether her wings will become present. I HAVE LITTLE FAITH and it makes me sad.
So yeah, I would much rather be here... FOR SURE!
My title is totally irrelevant to my post. It was just up in my nose and needed to be called upon.
I am in the midst of doing laundry for our trip. So far I have managed to finish a load of Melanie's clothes she started from yesterday.. collect the 5 HUGE loads from Cheyenne's room and then combine her and Mel's clothes .. so yeah lots of laundry today. Haven't even started on my own yet. I know I know -- I gotta stop doing the kids laundry. Well I only partially did Mel's and Cheyenne's is my gift to her for being on the HONOR ROLL! Go Cheyenne -- 4.0 GIRL.
A+ = Ethics
B+ = British Literature / honors
A = Algebra II
B+ = U.S. History I
B = Chemistry
A = Spanish III Honors / Dual Enrolled
Wow, I am never on this girl to do her work. This is all coming from an internal dialogue I am not responsible for. I don't know how she does it... and the other day she brought me home papers for class selections for her SENIOR year. OMG -- can I faint now. I told her I had to put it aside that I was not ready to process SENIOR yet. She just smiled. Then she goes, "OMG I'mma gonna be a SENIOR next year." again with a huge smile on her face.
So I am a proud momma..
Then after emailing Denise a.k.a. Boho Girl I had attached a photo of my Ajda when she was a year old. Something about her reminds me of Boho Girls Cedar.
I think it's the gentleness of the eyes.. and the chin.
Well we are off tonight to Tennessee. I am hoping to capture the leaves in the peak of color change. I am excited. I am stoked. I am ready for a nice change of scenery. I am hoping it will allow my husband to let go and be. To give him a breath of fresh air to help him shift sides. A revamping of the soul - RECHARGE... this is where we are staying. Timber Tops
and last but not least I am attempting to put up a video of Ayla playing the piano. Here goes..
This is my kitty. He is so much the boss in my house. He can manage to make anyone get up in the middle of the night just to let him in. He is a small eater in these days and has to eat 20 times a day. He is religious and dutiful with his task of waking Ayla in the mornings. He also loves to punk out the dog on a daily basis.
This is my kitty and he has been my friend for 15 years.
I can not wait until we are here. All of this plus family = JOY!
